"...a course of travel or route taken in order to reach a place."
This week it's begun to feel like the beginning of the end of my internship. I think this is mostly because my replacement has been chosen and all of a sudden I'm feeling ready to start something new. I'm excited to move forward and see what happens on the next part of my journey. Which way to go next.
So I'm wrestling with impatience again. Except this time I'm impatient to have things sorted and to understand how my life is going to look for the next while.
I know from experience that God doesn't always give me the answers. In fact, I'm not used to God telling me exactly what to do - it's usually a gut feeling at the last minute that turns out to be exactly the right thing. I don't always realise this immediately. Sometimes it's a few months before I recognise God's purposes and goodness in my direction. In conclusion, I'm not one of those Christians who's confident of their life direction. My future planning usually involves a lot of uncertainty and panic and desperate praying for guidance.
Naturally it means that I have no certain ideas. But I'm learning that it means I rely on God a lot more. My human uncertainty is coupled with my belief that it will work out for His glory. Sometimes that belief is small and doubtful - sometimes I wobble - but it's something I'm striving to hold onto.
I've been comforted and assured by these Bible verses recently:
"Our steps are made firm by the Lord when he delights in our way; though we stumble,we shall not fall headlong, for the Lord holds us by the hand." Psalm 37:23-24
"Way: a person's characteristic or habitual manner of behaviour or expression"
This week it's begun to feel like the beginning of the end of my internship. I think this is mostly because my replacement has been chosen and all of a sudden I'm feeling ready to start something new. I'm excited to move forward and see what happens on the next part of my journey. Which way to go next.
So I'm wrestling with impatience again. Except this time I'm impatient to have things sorted and to understand how my life is going to look for the next while.
I know from experience that God doesn't always give me the answers. In fact, I'm not used to God telling me exactly what to do - it's usually a gut feeling at the last minute that turns out to be exactly the right thing. I don't always realise this immediately. Sometimes it's a few months before I recognise God's purposes and goodness in my direction. In conclusion, I'm not one of those Christians who's confident of their life direction. My future planning usually involves a lot of uncertainty and panic and desperate praying for guidance.
Naturally it means that I have no certain ideas. But I'm learning that it means I rely on God a lot more. My human uncertainty is coupled with my belief that it will work out for His glory. Sometimes that belief is small and doubtful - sometimes I wobble - but it's something I'm striving to hold onto.
I've been comforted and assured by these Bible verses recently:
"Our steps are made firm by the Lord when he delights in our way; though we stumble,we shall not fall headlong, for the Lord holds us by the hand." Psalm 37:23-24
The Psalms are my favourite because they're honest and raw; words of King David as he battles through the dramas of his life (and his life was definitely dramatic!). This one is titled "Exhortation to Patience and Trust." And these words resonate clearly as I remember what I'm ultimately believing in.
As a Christian I believe I'm not just living for me. It's not just my journey but one that I'm travelling on with God. And understanding his way is part of the adventure.
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